I have a much better prospective on things today. I'm feeling more confident in my decision. I'm looking at it like this: Yeah, it could have been a great opportunity. But no matter what they would have offered me, school will always be the better opportunity. So really, I can't be missing out anything as good as what's in store for me.
I can't thank everyone enought for their supportive comments. I'm not exaggerating when I say they got my through this. I wrote Rene's zen saying ("Leap and the net will appear") on the corner of a piece of paper right before I called the job. After I hung up I had a bit of a cry and then read and reread the quote. I can feel that net forming below me right now.
I love you guys so much!!! Thanks for supporting me, I needed it!