Friday, March 28, 2008

Bitch Fest 2008

I stood on our laptop. Yeah, I'm just that retarded sometimes. I was hanging my X-Rays in the bay window and lost my balance. I stepped right on the pad. It's gone, much like the car. It's under warranty but in the states. I'm gutted. I'll be honest, I didn't cry about the car but I did cry about the laptop. It happened the day after the car so emotions were already high. Its just more money down the drain that we can't afford.
I feel yuck. Shouldn't really be blogging about more bad times, but while I'm on the subject...I'm not sure about the job now. My gut is telling me to get my ass in school and not to get tied down to yet another "Front Desk" position. I really am capable of so much more. I don't want to waste more time (my life) on a job that can literally go nowhere. But I'm scared. We need the money. What to do??? If you have ever been or are in school please share your thoughts on the subject. Should I just suck it up and take the job or should I take my chances and try my hand at college again? I'll go with the majority. It's like choose your own adventure!
Well, this sulking is not going to do itself, I'd better get grumpy. I'll try to get online as much as possible but with our lack of functioning laptop it will be hard. I'm on a loaner at the moment, not sure how long we can keep it though. Obviously I can't share any pictures for awhile. But I will as soon as I can. We got loads of new furniture and I want to show you how much better everything looks.

Personal Note to my sister Jina: Cheers for all your comments! Keep em' coming. I love you and think about you everyday! We'll talk soon.


Rene said...

oh dear,

it sounds like you've fallen on terrible terrible times. aside from offering the 'no doy' advice of "you should do what makes you feel happy," i think you should do the school thing.

oh how i can relate to being stuck in the 'front desk' situation. but you don't want to just have to settle for the rest of your life. you should be happy sherrie. you deserve it. i'm currently jobless, but i've been writing a lot. things that make me laugh and things that i hope to eventually do something with. but i'm happy, and that's what's important to me.

certainly it will be tough for a time, but you've got paulie. =) years down the road, i think you'll be happier in realizing you didn't just settle. i'll leave you with an old zen saying that goes:
leap and the net will appear.
good luck.

love you,

Anonymous said...

school. definitely school. it might be a little scary, but you have to know that you can do it.

-someone that's definitely not rene

Jina said...

Aw, thanks for the personal note=]. I will definately keep the comments coming, and I think about you everyday too. I can't believe that so many bad things have happened in such a short amount of time! And to you and Paul, too. How is that fair at all?!

Mom told me that you were planning on going back to school for photography, after she got off the phone with you the other day. That's fantastic! Honestly, you are such an amazing photographer and artist, that its like wasting your skills by sitting in a desk all day. Not that there was anything wrong with what you were doing before, but you know what I mean. I know you'll do great, whatever you decide.

Even though all this bad stuff is going on, and you probably don't feel very brave, just the fact that you moved to England was really [really] brave in itself. You should be proud of yourself. I really hope things start getting better for you soon, and England starts being more freindly and less car-theify! Love you <3